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2010-08-25T00:36:00.006+08:00

'The thing that goes the farthest towards making life worthwhile, that costs the least and does the most is just a pleasant smile.'

7 more months to liberation. god, i can't wait.

There's so much happening around, and i sometimes wish i could fall into and deep deep sleep and not bother about what's going on around me. But then again, i see some idiots that shouldn't be ignored in the first place. Like hey, if you're looking for a verbal debate, at least get some foundation in your vocabulary use. Whatthehell.

When i'm finally free, first thing i'll do is to get myself a new computer. Freaking hell, damn computer games. Thou shall not deny me.

Sheesh, i don't know how long i'm gonna keep this up, but i'm so in love with you right now. But you don't know that do you? Well, just be happy. (:

2010-02-27T21:34:00.003+08:00

Taeyang - Wedding Dress

니가 그와 다투고
niga geuwa datugo
때론 그 땜에 울고
ttaeron geu ttaeme ulgo
힘들어 할 때면 난 희망을 느끼고
himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo
아무도 모르게 맘 아-아-아프고
amudo moreuge mam a-a-apeugo
니작은 미소면 또 담담해지고
nijageun misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo

니가 혹시나 내 마음을 알게 될까봐
niga hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa
알아버리면 우리 멀어지게 될까봐
arabeorimyeon uri meoreojige doelkkabwa
난 숨을 죽여
nan sumeul jug yeo
또 입술을 깨물어
tto ipsureul kkaemureo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

내 맘을 몰라줬던
nae mameul mollajwotdeon
네가 너무 미워서
nega neomu miwoseo
가끔은 네가 불행하길 난 바랬어
gakkeumeun nega bulhaenghagil nan baraesseo
이미 내 눈물은 다 마 마 마르고
imi nae nunmureun da ma ma mareugo
버릇처럼 혼자 너에게 말하고
beoreutcheoreom honja neoege malhago

매일 밤 그렇게 불안했던걸 보면 난
maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan
이렇게 될꺼란 건 알았는지도 몰라
ireoke doelkkeoran geon aranneunjido molla
난 눈을 감아
nan nuneul gama
끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔
kkeuchi eomneun kkumeul kkwo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

부디 그와 행복해
budi geuwa haengbokhae
너를 잊을 수 있게
neoreul ijeul su itge
내 초라했던 모습들은 다 잊어줘
nae chorahaetdeon moseupdeureun da ijeojwo
비록 한동안은
birok handonganeun  no oh
나 죽을 만큼 힘이 들겠지만
na jugeul mankeum himi deulgetjiman no oh

너무 오랜 시간을 착각 속에
neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge
홀로 바보처럼 살았죠
hollo babocheoreom saratjyo
아직도 내 그녀는 날 보고
ajikdo nae geunyeoneun nal bogo
새 하얗게 웃고 있는데
sae hayake utgo inneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

And in english...

I would argue
Then you would cry
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.

I love this song.

yes i get it.

And this is our new generation

2010-02-19T22:48:00.002+08:00

In the past, people had an idea where they were going, and i would say everytime a group of friends met up, the events of the day would have already been decided long ago. That, is what i call the traditional way of doing it. Not that it's entirely a good thing, rather boring don't you think?

And i present to you, the new generation....

'Hi all, let's meet up at so and so mrt station tmr at 12 noon. Don't be late!'

The next day at 12.30pm.

'WTF la! Where is he? I thought he say he wake up liao?'

At 1pm.

'BASKET WHY YOU SO LATE?'

'Sorry luh, overslept. Where we going ah?'

'Err, dunno leh. Ask the rest?'

And at this point, i swear it's the point were we waste most of our time away, deciding the destination of the day.

This, people, is our generation. Maybe not the best way to do it, but definitely more interesting.

Agree?

Note: This is a totally random post i thought of while doing nothing. Not that i experienced it recently or anything.

Signed,

NiaoZz

Everything has its beauty but no everyone sees it. -Confucius

Girl, you're beautiful.

You know that don't you?

2010-02-17T00:29:00.003+08:00

傻瓜 - 吳克群

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数我们都懂
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

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Happy Chinese New Year to all!

Yes i know i'm late again. Live with it. Lol'd.

Today was a good day, will tomorrow be better?

We shall see.

and there you are.

but will i have the courage,

to love again?

FML man.

2010-02-05T22:30:00.002+08:00

Yeah, 'Absence from place of duty'. DAMN NICE LAH.

Seriously. Screw the life.

these memories..

2010-01-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

no really, the last thing i need now is to remember.

2010-01-30T21:45:00.010+08:00

All hail SNSD? Nah, so not me. But still, gotta love this shit.

K and i dunno WTF is that picture doing there. Oh, it's gone now.

Blogs r troublesome shit.

2010-01-30T21:33:00.004+08:00

Like whatthehell, whoever came up with this blogging shit must be a rather retarded person. No offense.

Okay it's officially my first post of 2010. I guess i could say it's gonna be a fresh new start. AND YES I KNOW I'M SLOW DON'T TELL ME. Yes and if it makes YOU feel any better, i'm not giving a damn about you anymore. Yay? Okay. Now's where i say, WELCOME 2010!

So i spend my time listening to songs i almost definitely do not understand. Does that make me mad? Yes? No? I think it does. Damn.

"Oh i'm mad. Like really really mad. Ha-ha-de-fucking-ha." Nicez.

Just so you know, i really forgot my pills today (:

expectations

2009-12-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

i honestly don't care anymore.

it's been so long... so long.

2009-08-29T14:21:00.003+08:00

画面不动了情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因让时间停了
在伤心的尽头被停格

电梯不动了爱也停止了
可是坠入的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单飘浮着

无重力腾空慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛飘荡的心却摔得更重了

我爱你你爱我是不是还不够
我不懂为什么付出的全落空
粉身碎骨的我不受控制的手
还能抓住什么我爱你你爱我
算不算是承诺全世界都沉默
没声音的嘶吼无重力爱坠落
最缓慢的折磨只剩遍体鳞伤的我
撑到最后

画面不动了情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因让时间停了
在伤心的尽头被停格

电梯不动了爱也停止了
可是坠入的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单飘浮着

无重力腾空慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛飘荡在半空的心
越挣扎却摔得更重

我爱你你爱我
是不是还不够我不懂为什么
付出的全落空无重力爱坠落
粉身碎骨的我不受控制的手
还能抓住什么我爱你你爱我
算不算是承诺全世界都沉默
没声音的嘶吼无重力的坠入
最缓慢的折磨只剩遍体鳞伤的我
撑到最后

我爱你你爱我是不是还不够
我不懂为什么付出的全落空
无重力爱坠落粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手还能抓住什么
我爱你你爱我算不算是承诺
全世界都沉默没声音的嘶吼
无重力爱坠落最缓慢的折磨
只剩遍体鳞伤的我撑到最后

SIAN.COM

2009-08-19T11:18:00.002+08:00

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

I can't get close if your not there
I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can't fix you i can't save you
Its something you have to do

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me

Come Back to Me - David Cook

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Block leave is damn boring. -.-

Resurrection

2009-08-11T02:14:00.002+08:00

Just like that,

all of a sudden, the skies don't seem so dark anymore.

and just like that, the colours are coming back into my world.

how long.... how long more?

tomorrow will be a better day?

2009-08-02T02:45:00.004+08:00

it's like i'm separated from the rest of the world.

i spend hours every night thinking, not knowing exactly what is it i'm thinking about...

annoying.

just what am i looking for?

sigh.

tomorrow will be a better day.

i hope...

2009-07-19T18:10:00.002+08:00

I remembered black skies

The lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
As time began to blur
Like a startling sign
That fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
Did I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect this space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

There was nothing inside
The memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide
The ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
Between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
Did I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

In every loss in every lie
In every truth that you deny
And each regret and each goodbye
Was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
Did I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect this space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide
Across this new divide
Across this new divide

New Divide - Linkin Park

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between friends that care and friends that don't give a damn, which one are you?

and how much can you remember?

when we make choices in life,

we don't turn back.

so when you decide to,

make sure you do it.

so run along now,

and remember this,

DON'T TURN BACK.

and LOL, i'm gonna be a fitness specialist.

2009-06-15T03:20:00.001+08:00

张信哲-从开始到现在

如果这是最后的结局
为何我还忘不了你
时间改变了我们告别了单纯

如果重缝也无法继续
失去才算是永恒
惩罚我的认真是我太过天真

难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在也同样落得不可能

难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认你是我不该爱的人

如果再见是为了再分
失去才算是永恒
一次新的记忆为何还要再生

难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在也同样落得不可能

难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认你是我不该爱的人

拿什么作证
从未想过爱一个人
需要那么残忍才证明爱得深

This is goodbye.

2009-05-09T19:48:00.002+08:00

To all you GunZ ppl who have been with me at one point or another. Especially those who have stood up for me during my prime, thank you.

Sadly to say, i'm probably never going back down that way again.

Guess i'll still play, but there won't be that same bond anymore.

Oh well, life's like that.

Cya peeps.

A little too not over you.

2009-05-09T02:23:00.002+08:00

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh..

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Hey, so be it man. You people can judge me, just don't say it to my face till you prove that you're better k?

And i thought people nowadays would have more brains.

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As for you, expect to get back what's rightfully yours, cos if i say i'm returning it, count on it.

Other than that, have a good life.

the only reason i don't bother to explain, is coz' everyone has developed their own opinion of things.

when that's the case, explaining only makes me look retarded, so yeah. i bother not.

hate me, curse me, whatever. just go ahead. you wouldn't know anyway, so act as you see fit.

bye.

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To blog proper.

Woots. I'm done with most of the crap BMT can throw at me. And yeap, only thing that's left is to..

GET.

MY.

GOLD.

Like wtf. I actually missed gold by 30 secs.

Full points but no gold award. Fucking. Annoying. Shit.

IPPT on Monday.

mygoldwillcome. roar.

Following that, 1 month to POP.

Will say my goodbyes to Tekong soon.

Maybe.. or maybe not.

To all Platoon 4 people, train hard (: ~

Wilson.

whatthehell?

2009-05-03T10:07:00.001+08:00

Look, it's 3 days just like that.

Today is book-in day.

FUCK?

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

2009-05-01T11:12:00.002+08:00

I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
Gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes
You were worth the hundred thousand miles
But you couldn't stay awhile
I got your little brown shirt in my bottom drawer baby
And your little white socks in the top drawer
You were always leaving your shit around
And gone without a sound

Yeah I'm the first to fall and the last to know
Where'd you go?

Now I'm heels over head
I'm hangin' upside down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound

I got a first class ticket to a night all alone
And a front row seat up right by the phone
Cause you're always on my mind
And I'm running out of time
I've got your hair on my pillow and your smell in my sheets
And it makes me think about you with the sand in your feet
Is it all you thought it'd be?
You mean everything to me

But I'm the first to fall and the last to know
And where'd you go?

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
And when you hit the coast
I hope you think of me
And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be

You're burnin' bridges baby
Burnin' bridges, making wishes
Yeah you're burnin' bridges baby
Burnin' bridges, making wishes
You're burnin' bridges baby
Burnin' bridges, making wishes
Yeah you're burnin' bridges baby
Burnin' bridges, making wishes

You're a chance taker, heartbreaker
Got me wrapped around your finger
Chance taker, heartbreaker
Got me wrapped around your finger

I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
Gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes
If I drive a hundred thousand miles
Would you let me stay a while?

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside-down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
And when you hit the coast
I hope you think of me
And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside-down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
And when you hit the coast
Maybe you'll finally see
And then you'll turn it all around and you'll come back to me

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Sheesh, i've said this before and i'll say it again.

All you fucks out there have no right to judge me. Unless you've been through what i have.

Have. A. Good. Day. Bye

not the kind of life i want.

2009-04-18T12:27:00.003+08:00

I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything".

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

Early morning
The city breaks
I've been callin'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all my world

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me

You found me, The Fray.

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This is not the kind of life i want, and i know there's someone out there who'll save me one day.

But... will that someone be you?

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

That's it?

2009-04-18T06:23:00.002+08:00

Is that it?

It's not good enough an answer, and you know it....

It's time....

2009-03-29T00:31:00.006+08:00

Late November 2007.

That's where it all started.

Christmas, Valentine's, your birthday. i didn't miss either of them.

It didn't really matter anyway, i already knew where it was going.

I, escaped.

Maybe through luck, maybe through fate.

I found someone who appreciated me for who i am.

But then again, happiness does not last long.

Rather than hurting those around you, it's better to let go...

Some tell me i did it because of you.

I really don't know, and i'm tired of trying to figure it out.

Whatever the reason was, i shall just leave it as a question mark.

Every little thing, everything i did.

It doesn't matter.

I thought by doing so, i could make a change.

But it seems it was all for nothing.

Whatever i could have done, i already did.

Whether it was appreciated or not, i don't want to know either.

But when i ask myself, i guess it's a no.

Don't ask me why, and don't judge me.

Humans are like that.

I'm never, ever gonna be used like that again.

Say i'm being unreasonable, say whatever you want.

That's how it feels.

You've held me here, unmoving for long enough, it's about time i guess.

Time to go.....

Well i guess i do owe you an apology though, guess there are promises that are meant to be kept. Problem is, i had no reason to be keeping them. But then again, a promise is a promise.

Sorry.

I'm walking. This time, i mean it.

Wilson

290309.

Damn this life.

2009-02-10T22:24:00.002+08:00

2 months back in Singapore.
And i shall announce that i have accomplished nothing.

Wilson.

i need light.

2009

2009-01-01T18:20:00.002+08:00

I wish that i'll know everything i'm supposed to know.

Man, singapore's weather sucks hard.

Happy 2009 to all~

Update!!!

2008-12-24T23:30:00.007+08:00

Hihi, I r teh Whaleson.

And I r back.

Basically, i came back from Australia, and went to thailand after that from the 15th to the 23rd of December.

'Wilson, what do you remember most about Thailand?'

Okay. I remember. 7-11!
In thailand, the name 7-11 has a freaking meaning.

Like. Literally.

EVERY 7 TO 11 METRES YOU WALK, YOU SEE A FREAKIN 7-11 STORE!!!!
WTF RIGHT?

Yeah anyway, thailand was fun. Cheap food and all. Had fun travelling around, going to the dog farm and stuff like that. Clothes were cheap too.

But damn. The walking sucked. Like... big time.

Okay. So we move on to today. More or less my first day back. I suppose.

Company dinner!

Yes, Jason's favourite hobby. EATING!

Chak and Jason. Jason was trying to fire a gun. FAIL.

Me, Chak and my mum. Loools.

That's me. Santa hat~ Nice.

LOL. Jason + Wine. GG.

Yeah that's me again. LOL.

Chak and I. IMBA.

Yes Bingo! I won 202 bucks. LOL.

CHEERS!

LOL yes. I won 3 out of 5 rounds of BINGO. HAHAHA.
Like wth. And i would have won like 500 bucks if i didn't donate back to keep the game going.

And yep. That's all for now.
GOODNIGHT ALL!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU.

I never know what's going on. Never fucking know. Please tell me whatthefuck is wrong with my life? 202 bucks, so what? 202 fucking dollars can't get me what i deserve. 202 bucks can't freaking change your mindset. I'm tired of trying. Damn-fucking-tired. But i still do so. Why? Yes, you deserve it, that's all. Theoratically, it's better to give than to take, but hell, if i don't even get what i'm supposed to get, what's the fucking point? Yes, no point. So yeah, my life is fucking screwed enough already, the last damn thing i need is anything worse than this. Damn, i hate this life. I HATE IT.

And damn, i guess there are some things that can spoil my mood after all.

So be it.

I hate my life.

2008-12-21T00:49:00.002+08:00

I need a damn alternative...

And no. I won't ever agree. Not today, not tomorrow and not anytime in the future.

Love.

18

2008-12-19T02:15:00.002+08:00

Yay i'm 18.

But it was a stupid day. haha.

Guess what, i'm in THAILAND!

LOL.

It's late. And i'm bored.

Thanks for remembering. Love you.

The world's a cruel place.

2008-12-14T11:05:00.004+08:00

'Every beginning has an end'

So sorry, but my end ain't here yet.
hurhurhur.

Yes i'm back in Singapore. Don't i know it?

But of course, some ppl would read this post and go 'OMG ur back?'.

Yeah. Don't do that please. I know i am.

So we come to the main question ppl will ask.

How was Australia?

Honestly, i'm just gonna tell you peeps, Australia is like... damn slack.

I mean like, besides school and sleep and gaming, there wasn't much to do.
At least until term 4.

Yep. This girl(and if you quote from her.. this random girl that appeared randomly(but i don't agree) so yeah.) She came and sheesh, don't you wanna tell me i'm lying, but i haven't dota-ed for like more than a month.

Going on, her name is Hon Kay Yee, or Kaye, whichever you prefer.
And yes, she's the angel sent to me.

But then again, the world's a cruel place, i have to come back for NS.
Which initiates the long wait of 2 years.
Don't i know it, it's hard, it's painful, it's miserable.
But i'll do it.

'We as humans live on hope'

Yes, i still hold on to lots of hope.
And one day, i'll be back.

ily

Wilson.

The world

2008-12-14T11:05:00.001+08:00

This is life.

2008-11-25T12:32:00.002+08:00

Circles.

I'm friggin walking around in circles.

WTH.

And yes i didn't go for graduation.
And thank god i didn't. LOL

Lucky me?
I guess not. Idk. qq.

So i've had a few normal days since i last blogged.

Don't ask. A normal day's a normal day. Like DUH.

Yeah. And i'm in school now. Lecture in 20mins. I swear i'm gonna fall asleep. Or not. Well it depends on whether Ronald Wrights decides to be funny in his '4 year ago' lecture. Hurhurhur.

Yes. And i'm lazy to blog in detail. So sue me. HAH.

WHALESON.

i need to find a way...
i'm losing my sleep.
i've lost my direction.
you came into my life,
and you became all that mattered.

whether you believe me or not,
however disturbing my past is.
it doesn't matter anymore.

i'm not letting you go.
believe it,

or not.

I love the library~! No, i love kaye.

2008-11-23T11:42:00.002+08:00

Imagine going to the library 9 days out of 10. Yeah, that's me.

Longest streak? 7 DAYS!

Then the next question you all will ask is, why not 10 out of 10?

I need a day off k.

Went to the movies on Friday. Like damn, wasted my 13 bucks? Well at least i think it was 13 bucks. Didn't really notice the price. Like WTH, and i thought 007 movies would at least have some standard. 'It was bullshit.' 3 words i have to describe the damn movie. LOL. The storyline was pretty lame, and worse still, the ending. AND YES, I'M SURE THE LEADERS OF GREENPEACE ARE VILLIANS.

Most memorable part of the movie? Not for you to know.

But think of it again, the part where the girl, whatever her name was, when she was trying to kill that general guy. That was pretty interesting. Like how the general was losing his nuts, literally~

Other than that... Quantum of Solace sucked. Totally.
No offence to James, but i never liked his face. Damn.

And yep. I'm in the library. Day 9 out of 10.
Don't ask me why, but i love to study.

Hah, that's it for now. Cyaaa~

I wish, to protect the one i love.
But somehow, it never seems to work out right.
I know,
We all have our bad days...
But still, once is enough,
More than enough.
I love you and that fact won't change.
More today than yesterday,
And even more in the days to come.

Wilson~

Studystudystudy!

2008-11-08T20:36:00.002+08:00

AND YES I WENT TO STATE LIBRARY TO STUDY TODAY K.

STUDY!!!!!

i finished reading 'A short history of progress'.
lalala.. i ownz~

Cyaaaaa!!~
xD

JUST FOR LAUGHS~
ღwilson-     `      iQuitDotA k~          says:
i r PRO.
- Winny.L - cherish th moment says:
i r RULE
ღwilson-     `      iQuitDotA k~          says:
R.
ღwilson-     `      iQuitDotA k~          says:
right. ruler~
- Winny.L - cherish th moment says:
LOL
- Winny.L - cherish th moment says:
SHIET U SIA
ღwilson-     `      iQuitDotA k~          says:
HAHAHA

Welcome back?

2008-11-07T20:23:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps, after a longlong break, I'm back.

Here's just a quick start to my return so yeah, ima keep it short.

iQuitDotAk~
Believe it or not, up to you.

Wilson~

Precious 5 weeks.
And it's 5 weeks that means alot to me..

Visitor (:

2008-08-11T15:27:00.002+08:00

Dad's in perth visiting~ ^^

LOLOL.

And i swear, the USA basketball team is fking overpowered. GGnore.

Okay it's rare that i have internet to use in the afternoon, i shall go make use of it. Cyaaaa~

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Hey, i chose this path.
So i'm gonna be walking this path whether i like it or not.
I may never catch up to you,
But in the end i'll be able to tell myself i tried.
Live life with no regrets, right? ^^

I'm BACK!

2008-07-31T22:40:00.002+08:00

A quick post, this will prove that my blog is NOT dead.

LOL i bought a new pair of sexy footsal shoes today. =D
Okay this is my quick post. Aahaha.

Cyaaa~

P.S. Cheer up Krissy, you got meeeeee =D

VERY INTERESTING STORY.

2008-07-17T22:11:00.003+08:00

Okay actually, here's a story for all of you.
I won't bother to narrate, cos it's pretty self-explanatory.
IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND. GG YOU.

I'm SERIOUS.
You probably need help. Lots of it. LOL

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Okay? Please tell me you understand k? Cos it's not that hard to, really.
Yeah and it has no real ending actually, unless you consider that a erm, suitable ending. LOL
I'm open to suggestions, just that you'd have to wait till September before i add in the ending. Ahaha =x

AND LAST PORTION.

Yep that's Zhuen and I. Just before i left.
Have fun in NS k? I mean, maybe it's not fun but yeah, do enjoy it.
It's my turn next year. LOL
Okay, goodnights ppl.

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Another day, is going by
I'm thinkin about you all the time
But you're out there, and i'm here waitin.
And i, wrote this letter, in my head
So many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone, and i cant think straight...

TAAAAAAYLORS!

2008-07-16T19:07:00.009+08:00

YOYO. School's started for me and it TOTALLY SUCKS!

Mt timetable consists of 5 timeslots. and these 5 timslots are randomly arranged around the timetable. yeah. cool eh?

Timeslot 1 - Maths 4
Timeslot 2 - Maths 3
Timeslot 3 - Maths 2
Timeslot 4 - English 4
Timeslot 5 - Physics 2

I'm gonna be a damn good.

MATHEMATICIAN. roflmao.

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First day of school was good, nothing much.
AND OMG. I OVERSLEPT TODAY LAAAAAAAAA. WTFUX.

LOL. okay here are some pics i took before i left singapore. enjoooy

LOL that's Chak and Keith, you don't wanna know what they're doing.

Chak's village. (he's a thai)

Keith and Vanessa. Hey, those stuffed toys are cute. LOL

Hey that was meant for kid's like June(right), but Chak and Keith decided to join her.

Yeah now Keith's a fairy. LOL at Chak pls.

BROS! =D

ah-NEH and me. LOL

That's all of us. Cept for 1. ahah.

OH and here's a fish Keith and i caught. No actually, more like Keith caught. i was too busy complaining about the damn weather in singapore. LOL. Anyway this fish is a.... a... shit. peacock something fish luh. Doesn't look like a peacock to me also. But nvm, point is. I NAMED THE FISH WEIXUAN. Okay sorry weixuan i not saying you look like fish. Maybe fish look like you luh, sheesh. but abit sad also. =x LOL. Okay this is it. Say hi to WEIXUAN THE FISH!~

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and i don't know, how to be fine when i'm not.
cos i don't know, how to make a feeling stop....
Just so you know.

<3

2008-07-12T12:10:00.003+08:00

And this is my song....

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

Faber Drive - Tongue Tied.

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2008-07-12T12:03:00.000+08:00

My life's being turned upside down. GGnore.

Sorry....

2008-07-09T18:51:00.003+08:00

And this is for you.
here i express my deepest and most sincere apologies to you,
for the stupid mistake i made
by putting all the blame on you
i hope that you'll realise i never meant to hurt you
and that our friendship can still remain.
Sorry Sandy, i truly am.

DotA Compy (:

2008-07-05T23:14:00.004+08:00

LOL @ DOTA COMPY.

i was supposed to reach there at 9. but keith and i was kinda behind time.
SO WE CABBED.
WTFUX. WASTE MY MONEY.

They changed the time to 12. but that wasn't the main part.
THE MAIN PART WAS, IT WAS HELD IN A DAMN HDB VOID DECK!

In short, it was 20 teams of five, with 10 LAPTOPS to use.
Each game would last 30 mins or earlier. which earlier wont be likely to happen.
5 HOURS TO END FIRST round.

So the end conclusion was to forfeit. (: Which we did.
Went to ggk for inhouse draft.
LOL i can't believe -sd is soooooo one sided k.
Sentinels always get the crappy heroes and the Scourge have like bloody draft heroes. Shitty. LOL
Viper 26 min rad but lose =X Lmao.
2nd game was total crap. Can't remember what i used. OH. BM.
I FORGOT HOW TO MAKE NECRO BOOK!
Ahaha.
Last game was good though, i love CK!

Yeah and i'm kinda lazy to go into details.
So this is it for today.
Cya, goodnights (:

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And this is specially for you.
Cos no matter how out of reach you are
These feelings i have for you will always be there
Sometimes i ask myself if doing this is right
But the joy of just being around you
Will always allow me to tell myself
"Wilson, you're doing the right thing"

And then i ask myself why am i doing this
It's because of that smile of yours
To see that smile of your's once again
There isn't a price too much to pay
Ain't anything i can't do for you
And lastly, ain't something i'd be willing to let go.

Now i look back upon my choice
And i ask myself this time
If i regretted the choice i made
The answer is 'No'.
Because i know now that
You were always the one i was searching for.

Coz' you,
are that shining star that brightens up my world
are that someone, who i'll never fail to think of
are that cheerful and vibrant girl that makes you special
are the one i'll always love
are you.

SINGAPORE!

2008-07-03T23:53:00.003+08:00

Okay i've been busy these few days, so i dont really blog much. But then again, blogging is kinda troublesome you know.

Monday, went with keith to bedok. 60c BUBBLE TEA. LOL. After that went his house DotA.

Tuesday, didn't do much. Had lunch, rest of the time was mostly at home.

Wednesday, had lunch with grandma, went tampines for dinner with keith weng kiat and cky.

Today. I was home the whole damn day. cept for dinner. (:

AND. yeah. this is just my veryvery short update on these few days i spent back in singapore. it can be MUCH shorter. so don't complain.

And this is how i live.
I won't stop thinking of you.
Coz' it's you that brings back my smile
And the more you tell me i shouldn't
The more i'd wanna be by your side.
Yes, coz' i'm in love with you.

I'm HOME! (:

2008-06-30T22:19:00.002+08:00

After 3 months of mother cold weather, i'm finally home!~
And following my return, DOTA!!

LMFAO.

And this is all for now. Cos i have a game coming up. I'll update more later k?

(:

Continuing, i have lost draftmatches and pubgames alike.
Now i'm in GunZ and i'm feeling like shit now.
Yeah and i don't want to continue blogging.
Cyas.

And now i'm stuck in a place,
Where i can't turn back.
It's you or nothing.
But you,
Are like the distant stars.
No matter how hard i try,
I just cant reach you...

2 HOURS!

2008-06-29T09:53:00.003+08:00

I HAVE INTERNET IN THE MORNING. LMFAO!

Bout 2 hours till i leave.

FOR HOME! (:

If you can see this,
Know that i'm thinking about you.

I'll be home soon! :D

2008-06-28T14:47:00.004+08:00

Hi all,

Yes i know i haven't blogged in like...
VERY
VERY
VERY
VERY
VERY LONG. Yeah?

Here's a start. In about 31 hours from now, i'd be home. ahaha.
Exciting yea?
yeayeayea?

Lmao. And as for life in Australia, it's very much the same old...
Just that i realise i'm getting lesser and lesser online time as compared to when i first came. Yeah ):

Landlady goes to work in the early morning and NEVER turns on the damn internet.
So i have to stone at home for half the day, and wait for her to come home from work before she turns it on. Damn.
And fyi, she comes home at like. 4 in the afternoon.
that's if i'm lucky. if i'm not, she comes home at 6 plus in the evening. which SUCKS!

Okay let's talk about yesterday, i woke up at 9. SHE WAS GONE!.
So i went back to sleep.
Woke up at bout 11.
Took a bus to Fremantle Markets.
JAP FOOD FTW!
Went back home, took a shower.
Watched bleach, which i already watched before.
SHE CAME HOME AT 4 PLUS!
So yeah, i went online at 4 plus.
I shan't talk about today.
COS I'm ONLINE!

And this is for you,
Cos i've never ever told you how special you are.
And how you make me feel like i have everything in this world.
And of course, how you never fail to brighten up my day.
For that, i can say it once again,
I love you.

P.S. My laobuh has a fetish for sharp noses. If you have a sharp nose, WATCH OUT (:

2008-06-23T21:48:00.001+08:00

Marie Digby- Say it again

Thing about love, is I never saw it coming
You kinda crept up into me by surprise
And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering
Is this true? I wanna hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love
Say it again

The thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there's no end in sight
The thing about me is that I really wanna let you open the door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a litter louder
Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

And it feels like it's the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that i'm the only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It's like the whole world starts to listen when you tell me you're in love

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

Say it again
Say it again
Say it again

When you tell me you're in love

Say it again

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was studying, had nothing to do so yeah, here i am. haha.

2 days till end of exams, wish me luck! =D

i'll be back in SG soon!

2008-05-21T17:42:00.000+08:00

Boys like Girls - Hero/Heroine

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
I got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine

I won't try to philosophize
I'll just take a deep breath then I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And it's so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and their skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie

You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

And I feel a weakness coming on
It never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
And I'm feeling like a newborn child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
It never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
And I'm feeling like a newborn child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
It never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?)
And I'm feeling like a newborn child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

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i'm DEAD.
i'm not blogging.

2008-05-19T21:44:00.002+08:00

Backstreet Boys - As long as you love me

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leavin' my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be

I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (I don't know)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me (yeah)

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're comin from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby

I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (as long as you love me)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did (yeah)
As long as you love me (as long as you love me)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
As long as you love me
Who you are
As long as you love me
What you did (I don't care)
As long as you love me

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Kathryn says:
ITS MY FAVOURITE
Kathryn says:
DAMNNNN I LOVE TAT SONG
Kathryn says:
TAT SONG RAWKS LAAAA

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OH YEH! told ya i'm good. rofl!

HAVE A GOOD NIGHT PPL! AS LONG AS Y'ALL LOVE ME!

2008-05-18T19:30:00.002+08:00

Colbie Caillat - Bubbly

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place

And it starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And they start in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

Wherever you go
I always know
Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

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Okay i sooooooo love this song. =D

Had fish and chips at Freo today, was nice and weather was good too.
DAVID THANKS YOU SAVED MY MOUSE!!! ROFL!

i love cotton candy ice cream. heh.

2008-05-16T23:11:00.002+08:00

it was a really really boring day today. cept the part where i played dota. lolol

okay. i'm kinda bored to blog already. sorry

how long more do i have to wait?

2008-05-15T20:38:00.006+08:00

Muttons - Go and Buy

Ehh! Ehh!
Mutton what happen to you?
Ehh! Pain ah! Ehh!
What happen?
Ehh! Kena hammer!
HUH?
I tell you.

Febuary 14th, gonna spend that day alone.
(EH! But I thought you got girlfriend?)
Didn't buy a gift so she broke my collarbone.
(Aiyooh.)
She tell me that i'm stingy,
Then she go and cut my arm... awaaaaay.
I tell her that i'm sorry,
But then she kick me to the ground.. and saaaaay.

It's too late to go and buy,
It's too laaaate...
(Aiyah tell her shop all closed luh!)
It's too late to Valentine's,
I'm all gaaaaay.
(Aiyoh mutton, you very poor thing arh.)
(mumbling... now i no teeth arh.)
(What?)
(Yeah, i tell you why arh.)

She punch me in the mouth
Now i got no front tooth.
(Like a bugs bunny liddat arh?)
I look like mickey mouse,
Cos my ears are like balloon.
(Eh get kids take photo with you luh)
She hold me down by my face
Now it's turning blue
And she saaaaaay,
You should have bought me flowers
Should have bought be diamonds too
Now you're dead...

It's too late to go and buy
It's too laaaate.
(Go 7-11 buy orange juice luh)
It's too late to Valentine's
I'm all gaaaay.
(Outside got prata, 24 hours!)

It's too late to go and buuuy, yeaaahhhhhhh.
It's too late to Valentine's, why like that?

(Come mutton, you and i, we go zoo luhs)

Credits: Thanks to BP for trying to figure out the mumbling. BUT STILL DUNNO WHAT HE SAYING!!! LOL.

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HAHAHAHAAHAHA.

2008-05-06T22:33:00.002+08:00

Elliot Yamin - You are the one.

Hmmmmmm
Ooooooooh

Sometimes i sit and i wonder
And i just can't seem to believe
What a blessing it's been to be loved
You're an angel sent to me

You're the star who lights up my sky
You're the one who made me see
That you don't need wings to fly
Your love has set me free

Cause you are the one who makes me whole
In my heart and in my soul
And just like the sun you showed me the light
I'm amazed and you're the reason why

Before you i was so blind
I didn't know which path to choose
You poured all of this love in my heart
And now there's no way that I can lose

And when i have no faith in myself
You're the one who makes me strong
I wouldn't have a story to tell
Or an ending to my song

Cause you are the one who makes me whole
In my heart and in my soul
And just like the sun you showed me the light
I'm amazed and you're the reason why

Oooohh you're the reason why
Oh ooooooooh

You are the one who makes me whole
In my heart and in my soul
Just like the sun you showed me the light
I'm amazed and you're the reason why

Cause you are the one who makes me whole
In my heart and in my soul
Just like the sun you showed me the light
I'm amazed and you're the reason why

You are the one who makes me whole
In my heart and in my soul
And just like the sun you showed me the light
I'm amazed and you're the reason why

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Chemistry is nerding.

i've been staring at that damn piece of yellow paper for like ages and nothing seems to work out in my head.

this is called GG. sbtt.

woo and maths test next monday. fun.

GunZ sucks to. i'm losing it all. ggnore.

school? boring as usual. like 3 out of my 4 lessons is pure nonsense. nonsense = go in, stone. and the 1 lesson that doesnt suck, requires me to read a book on Lance Armstrong. He had testicular cancer btw. Just in case you didn't know. And comparing with the normal range of books that i read, that book is really really really retarded.

hell, can school get any worse?

and internet's running out. o.o

crap.
GG.

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oh whats anything divided by zero? =.=
i'm seriously trying to figure this out.
trying real hard.
not joking.
zzz.

2008-05-02T22:19:00.001+08:00

Hello!

it was in black.. ^^

2008-05-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

A

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=)

is this long enough? ^^

2008-04-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

Cold cOld coLd colD!!!!

ggnore.

2008-04-20T11:51:00.000+08:00

The Great Australia Countdown.

Currently @ approx 21 hours.

ggnore.

2008-04-13T17:42:00.002+08:00

Ryan Cabrera - True

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

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this is true, it has to be.

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partied all night, booze, good food, games. 5 hours of sleep!

yea, i'm still alive and well.

2008-04-12T00:31:00.001+08:00

Woot. In Singapore. Haven't been blogging for a long long time. SO here's 1 to let ppl know i ain't dead yet =/

2008-03-04T17:28:00.001+08:00

Justin Timberlake - My love

Ain't another woman that can take your spot my-

If I wrote you a symphony,
Just to say how much you mean to me (what would you do?)
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular (tell me, would you?)
Well, baby I've been around the world
But I ain't seen myself another girl (like you)
This ring here represents my heart
But there's just one thing I need from you (say "I do")

Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Ooooh, girl
My love
My love

Now, if I wrote you a love note
And made you smile with every word I wrote (what would you do?)
Would that make you want to change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team (tell me, would you?)
See, what's the point of waiting anymore?
Cause girl I've never been more sure (that baby, it's you)
This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you've been waiting for (just say "I do")

Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Ooooh, girl
My love
My love

Alright it's time to get it JT
I don't know why she hesitates for man
Shorty, cool as a fan
On the new once again
But, still has fan from Peru to Japan
Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan
If you got a man, try to lose him if you can
Cause the girls worldwide throw their hands up high
When they wanna come kick it wit a stand up guy
(Trust me) You don't really wanna let the chance go by
'cause you ain't been seen wit a man so fly
Baby friends so fly I can go fly
Private, cause I handle my B.I.
They call me candle guy, simply because I am on fire
I hate to have to cancel my vacation so you can't deny
I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try
You don't come, I ain't gonna die
Hold up, what you mean, you can't go why?
Me and your boyfriend we ain't no tie
You say you wanna kick it when I ain't so high?
Well, baby it's obvious that I ain't your guy
Ain't gon' lie, I feel your space
But forget your face, I swear I will
St. Bart, St. Bulla anywhere I chill
Just bring wit me a pair, I will

I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(Love) My love
(Love) My love
(Love) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(Love) My love
(Love) My love
(Love) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Ooooh, girl
My love
My love

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i'm lazy to type.

2008-03-03T19:46:00.000+08:00

jump, jump!

LOL i watched jumper today.

Sleepover!

2008-03-02T15:33:00.004+08:00

Yes, it's a party! Random pictures for YOU.

LOL @ Marcus.

Standing on poles, how retarded. Lucky i'm da cameraman. =/ hoho.

randomisation

2008-03-02T13:39:00.002+08:00

random thoughts, random people, random calls, random naps.

i'm at home. wow.

RANDOM POST.

2008-03-01T20:58:00.003+08:00

Ashley Parker Angel - Let You Go

Broken promises
But you don't really mind
It's not the first time
And you know it, don't you know
Tell me why it is you only smile inside
But when you break me into nothing
Don't you know

It's not like I haven't tried
Over and over again
Stupid fights
Wrong or right
Goodbye...

I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta let you go

You're the one mistake
I really didn't mind
So beautiful, unmerciful
It took me down
Too little and too late
So now I know your kind
You fake it easy, just to please me
Don't you know

It's not like we haven't tried
Over and over again
Sleepless nights wrong or right
Goodbye...

I gotta let you go...
It's you...
Theres nothing I can do

I remember when you came with me that night
You said forever

Here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta
Let You Go

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let you go? =.=

that's plain retarded. it ain't gonna happen.

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and now a few days have passed and i haven't blogged.

i swear someone UP there is trying to make my life difficult for me.

no kidding.

phone no credit means no credit okay. if you think i'm fucking faking then i got Nothing to SAY. dot.

right, enough of that....

maths 60 plus, physics 60 plus. chem dunno yet. i think will be above 70. english 80.

current stats. OMG BIRD IS GONNA SURVIVE!
LOL.

AMAZING! =.=
quite. i suppose. ha.

woo beach party yesterday. sleepover. bailey's (FGC), erh steak? MOVIE! omgomomg this is life man. haha. slept for 3 hours.

and i'm still here now. AMAZING!

rofl.

okay. i'm lazy to type anything else. besides what i'm gonna type next. which isn't alot. but, its okay. i'll survive that...

and yes, i think i'm being an idiot again. i need to tell you soon.

i'm really happy you chose to talk about such stuff.

but damn, i can't do this. i can't believe that i actually was thinking of it.

so yea, i'm telling you now. i said 'yes'. i mean 'FUCK NO'. yes. i meant no. don't do it. don't even think about it.

same philosophy. if i asked you to stick a nail in the friggin Mona Lisa or sth, you probably won't do it either.

so. don't. please.

yes i know i'm stupid.
maybe stupidly in love with you.
it's a good thing. trust me.

3 days..

2008-02-29T08:30:00.003+08:00

All American Rejects - Move Along

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along

When everything is wrong, we move along
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

Right back what is wrong
We move along

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3 days

i feel like an idiot already.

if you don't know what i mean. don't bother asking.

cos i'll probably get mad. i think. -.-

sweet and sour. that's the exact taste of hope. you know?
and that's why i'm losing sleep...

2008-02-26T17:43:00.000+08:00

Simple Plan - Save You

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It’s Just skins and bones
There’s nothing left to take
No matter what I do I can’t make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it’s over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I’ll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I’ll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I’ll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I’ll be there for you

If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there’re so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
I wish I could save you

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special day
but yet
i don't know why
i'm feeling like this

till now
i don't know why
i keep doing these things
to hear you say 'thank you'
or to see you smile(if you do)

being so far away
i don't know if there's anything
that i can do
to make that smile of yours stay

but i will try...
and keep trying...

Happy Birthday.

2008-02-22T21:48:00.000+08:00

i knew i'd miss you...

i just didn't know i'd miss you this much.

2008-02-21T15:58:00.000+08:00

Simple Plan - Take my hand

Hey Hey
Hey Hey

Sometimes I feel like everybody's got a problem
Sometimes I feel like nobody wants to solve them
I know that people say we're never going to make it
But I know we're going to get through this
(Close your eyes and please don't let me go)
Don't, Don't, Don't, Don't let me go now
(Close your eyes don't let me let you go)
Don't, Don't, Don't

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

The city sleeps and we're lost in the moment
Another kiss says we're lying on the pavement
If they could see us they would tell us that we're crazy
But I know they just don't understand
(Close your eyes and please don't let me go)
Don't, Don't, Don't, Don't let me go now
(Close your eyes don't let me let you go)
Don't, Don't, Don't

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

Hey Hey
Hey Hey

The raindrops
The tears keep falling
I see your face and it keeps me going
If I get lost your light's going to guide me
And I know that you can take me home
You can take me home

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die (Love will never die)
Take my hand tonight
One last time

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worst day ever.

maths test in the morning, first period. i suppose i knew most of the stuff i had to, but then again, i now have 11 friggin marks gone down the drain. max mark's now 59. pray... ><

rest of the day was boring as usual, last period was english.

took back english test.
79.5/100. f man.

don't tell me i did well. it ain't about whether the score is good or not.
i could have done better. better as in like. 90++. F.

yes yes, and that alone was enough to kill my mood for the day. stupid.

when it comes to something like that, you realise that what you feel doesn't matter at all. and inevitably, you start to see the true human nature.

yea, he has a car. right. car. big deal.
like i give a shit.

i.am.not.in.the.mood
dot.

2008-02-20T15:56:00.000+08:00

Simple Plan - I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So i try to find the words that i could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
Theres nothing else that I can do
And I just cant take it
I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But i can wait
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever...

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i can wait forever... =/

i think.

another boring day in perth has passed. not as in literally passed, but just that i'm home unusually early. ha.

boring lessons as usual.

long live chicken pesto! haha. ownzx.

lets see. didn't really do much. sent tiff home, had a glass of mango juice.

and...

WENT HOME! (here i am) =.=

right. that's seriously all i did today.

hope ur enjoying urself out there alright? =/
i miss you!

2008-02-19T18:43:00.001+08:00

Blog blog..

Holy shit man. Life in perth is like sooooo friggin boring. ha.

had a school tour to UWA. seriously, the tour was like... walk in the park? as in like. LITERALLY. so yea. it's like. " hi ppl welcome to UWA. This building here is blah blah. That building there is blah blah. This is the UWA student guild. And it goes on and on and on. "

i'm surprised i actually survived that trip and made it back to school.
bought my graphics calculator. 169 bucks. this sucks.

and i skipped maths class =/
was like sleeping in the library. si hua(fellow singaporean) was doing some bio thingy. so i slept. close eyes* ........... open eyes* -- 1 hour passed.

that was FAST man. i swear i din even get to like... SLEEP.
what the.

si hua went for english, and i went to some nearby cafe and had food that will own the school's canteen food. AT FIFTY CENTS EXTRA!

after school, went to currie.... almost got killed by faiz there, though i shan't tell you how. in fact he almost killed 4 ppl. =/ haha.

dinner at nando's, chicken steak. then went over to tiffany's place to drink some herbal chicken soup. soup was damn good.

and damn hot. like the hot that burns your tongue. ouch.

and finally...

I AM HOME!

cheers =D

to phyllis,
have fun at your camp tmr! take care, dun hurt yourself!
LOL, as quoted by keith. (Lots of love)

2008-02-18T19:03:00.000+08:00

what the freaking hell is wrong with you?

i PRETEND not to pick up your call?

oh PUH-LEASE luh....
zzzzzzzz.

This is the most screwed up thing i've ever seen in my entire. friggin. LIFE.
Hell.

Life sucks.
`Bird.

2008-02-16T19:47:00.000+08:00

i wander around in circles
wondering if i'll ever get out.
sometimes i tell myself,
that i'm doing all these for a good cause
but then again,
there always comes a time
where i look in the mirror

and wonder...

if i'm actually making a right choice

sometimes i wish
that i could be with you all the time
just being there
to ensure that the smile on your face
will never fade with time
but that is just a dream
that i may never ever achieve

so now...

i tell myself
no matter what happens
i'd keep going on
till that day when you finally see
that you meant everything to me.

*i swear that the "bored-ness" in this country is killing me. and if this goes on. i'm gonna emo myself to death soon.

2008-02-16T16:42:00.003+08:00

my insides all turn to ash / so slow
and blew away as i collapsed / so cold
a black wind took them away / from sight
and held the darkness over day / that night

and the clouds above move closer
looking so dissatisfied
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing...

i used to be my own protection / but not now
cause my path has lost direction / somehow
a black wind took you away / from sight
and held the darkness over day / that night

and the clouds above grew closer
looking so dissatisfied
and the ground below grew colder
as they put you down inside
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing...

so now you're gone
and i was wrong
i never knew what it was like
to be alone

on a valentine's day.

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sometimes i wish life wasn't so screwed up.

but things never change.

i try, i try to do everything i can

but it turns out to be all in vain.

all that i did for you, i still don't know why

but it wasn't to hear you say "thanks for....."

it was for me to know that you'd be smiling for at least that little while...

and for you to know that there was someone out there thinking of you

but then again, reality often hits you harder than you expect
the hopes i held shattered to the words you said

"i don't have any feelings for you."

and all that's left for me to do now

is to pick up all the little pieces scattered

and piece them together again

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the card you sent to me

it's always with me

going where i go, and constantly reminding me of you.

i don't know how long it will take, but 1 thing i'm sure of

is that...

that i'll keep on trying.
no matter what it takes.

*now as i look back. i don't regret this path that i've chosen.
because it was this path, that led me to you.
and no matter what happens, i'll always be there when you need me.
and will be giving you my full support, silently, from wherever i am.
as i pick up the little pieces of my shattered dreams,
i'll know that i'm doing it...
... for you. <3>

2008-01-28T18:45:00.001+08:00

Hey people! Don't worry too much about me yo, place here's kinda nice. I think i'll be okay. I think. And yea, i'm still lazy to blog too much yo, all of you take care over at SG ya? Will cya all soon ^^ WORK HARD!! (i think i need that more. but nvm =D). And fee, all the best for your matches man. You can do it!

Damn am i the only one who thinks that this cat is giving me the "who the hell do you think you are?" look?

2008-01-28T18:37:00.000+08:00

2008-01-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

Life.

In the short span of 3 weeks, no, 2 weeks and 6 days exactly, i'll be going to Australia for the foundation course. And what i'm looking for now, is to enjoy the remaining time i have here in Singapore. But no, no i can't have that. Why? Cos she has to friggin intervene and screw my life up totally.

Lets say, i use my time to go out, she screams about me going out day and night. Okay, i dun go out. Maybe it cos i spend alot outside. Stay at home use com lo. ALSO FUUCKING CANNOT. DUNWAN ME KEEP GOING OUT AT LEAST LEMME STAY AT HOME USE MY COM CAN? WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU?

Zzzz.

-i've always wondered if things would work out for me. till now, it hasn't/ but then again, you came into my life, and i have found no better joy than just being with you. and that's why i know i can't let it pass like that.. i have to do something. and i promise, as long as you need me, i'll be there.

2008-01-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

Going to thailand tmr. WTF man. And i swear my life is getting more and more screwed up by the day.

Bird

2008-01-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

Sch start liao! And i get to slack happily. Actually, not so happily. But nvm.

I get to..

SLACK. at least.

I'd still die of boredom before i fly to Australia. I think bah.

WISH ME LUCK. AND TAG. MORE! ALOT MORE!

Bird.

-happy schooling. goodluck, takecare!

2008-01-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to all!

Sch's starting soon for most of ya ppl. Have FUN! I have like 1 more month to go. Cheers.

Actually. It sucks. It sucks hard luh. I have like another month of stoning to do at home and i'd die most probably. Sounds cool eh?

Anyway, wish you all out there a great year ahead and.. GOOD LUCK!

Bird

-now i know how difficult it is for you. and i still want you to know that i haven't given up, that i'm still here doing all that i can for you. and waiting....

2007-12-23T17:32:00.000+08:00

Birthday BBQ pics.

2007-12-08T10:49:00.000+08:00

sorry........

2007-12-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

i swear to god my life is getting more screwed than ever. -.-

2007-11-23T22:34:00.000+08:00

Chalet pics.

World's most dangerous fisher. Dun ask me why.

Boat to Ubin.

Titanic.
Jimmy din know what to pose. O.o

The result of 2 days of fishing. rofl.

Thats Keith and Kiat. Fishing. -.-

This is after she finally stopped trying to kill Keith.

Wahahaa. Keith got owned by the Pool god. Me.

We got scammed. Van to the supposed 'FISHING SPOT'. NO FISHES DE!

Yea nth better to do so i post.

-bang, bird's dead.

2007-11-22T10:42:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE F?

Seriously, life is getting screwed up beyond what i can handle.

MAKE it or BREAK it, thats what they alway say.

-i let my heart open, and now its being forced to close... * i swear i wasn't joking.... i do i do i do i do like you...

2007-11-21T01:24:00.000+08:00

Chalet's kinda lame also. Lol we are playing computer games. But it's like past midnite so.... so yea.

Can understand.

Lol keith's using 'whosyourdaddy' to own bots. WTF. Unlimited money. So i'm hearing like.... "TRIPLE KILL~!" over and over again. IMBA.

Sleepy liao. Eh nu er faster call, i nth better to do liao.

Lolol. Gna fall asleep soon. O.o

And Fee, take care ya? Rest more, drink more water. Den recover faster. ^^

-in my heart i had hoped for the better, but then, life never goes the way you want it to.... turmoil of my heart.... stabbed - twist.... the crude blade of yours has wounded me......

and.... i'll still be waiting for you....

2007-11-19T13:02:00.000+08:00

Thailand. Omg Chak u pangsehh de. Zzzzzzzz

Exhibition, sleep, shop, sleep, shop, sleep, shop. Something like that. Lawl.

Yea. Company exhibition. I went to help out. Was fun though.
Bought lotsa crap too. Lol.

*I'm bored.

2007-11-14T20:40:00.000+08:00

Tmd. GunZ maintainence.

Stupid

2007-11-14T09:12:00.000+08:00

Ugh.. she left.

Yea it's proven. Birds are stupid. Hell, why did i even bother?

Zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Thinkin of you

2007-11-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

And once again, we'll be miles apart..

Though for a little while,

It's enough,

To tell me how much.....

I need you.. <3

London, i ain't going back there.

2007-11-13T09:11:00.000+08:00

Bear sofa. Wth.

Giant teddy. It's frking bigger than me. -.-

Tower Bridge. Dam nice.

London eye. Looks frking slow.
Paris. LOL. Shopping centre. I hate it.

You all know. I actually ate dinner there.

Paris. Train station

Lol. I post pics first. Tell you about London later.

First

2007-11-11T16:03:00.000+08:00

Woo.. first post. ahahahahaah ^^